Healing.

What they don’t tell you about healing is that behind all the self-love and care routine you’ve worked on all these years will get tested once you let someone else in. Boy, Can I say my whole healing journey was tested in many ways. Like for example, how you handle the situation like your old self versus how you handle said situation now that you’re healed and a completely different person. All these questions run through your mind along with all your emotions. Now, you can’t look at the situation with just how you feel. Also, I have put myself in that person’s shoes and how I would handle the whole thing. Overall, healing is lingered and there is not a right way to do it. But your healing will be tested with people, places and things. Now, it’s the current you vs the old you in all types of tests because that’s where all the real work happens. You can isolate yourself and do all the self-care and self-love all you want but life tests you on how you handle everything that’s thrown in your path. Then it’s you vs the obstacles that life throws at you. Its a battle of who’s going to handle these battles and get you over the obstacles thrown at you. Is it going to be the previous version of you or the version of you that you’ve been working so hard to achieve, the healed and stronger your? There’s so many layers of healing and life experiences, all the knowledge you can contain with everything. The healing journey, there is no right way to handle it. You must build yourself up first and start doing things you love. Try to romanticize your life, start enjoying the little things and appreciate the people that never left your side. Those who always wanted to build and grow with you. I promise you that your life will start to seem brighter and healthier. Youll feel happier and the love and appreciation you dish out will come right back to you tenfold. Things will get better for you, your energy will start to shine. That wonderful energy you work so hard to achieved by healing will be infectious and reach those around you. I want you to take it all in and it only goes up from here, Along with this healing journey you will have some setbacks but that’s okay, you will learn from it and do better than last time. But don’t forget to enjoy life while you are at it and not just focus on the healing process because life is meant to be living and not just existing while reaching every goal and vision you have for yourself. Plus, the things you love about yourself can make them better with time. Trust me, it is all worth it. In my experience, its a rollercoaster ride. im still not done, I still need to work on my anxious attachment style with lovers, friends, family. I feel like I must let them know that I am here, and I don’t want to lose them at the same time. Like I want to show people a whole different experience